The "ever" is interesting. It seems like he's looking for you to make a decision. Don't let him push you into that. Your answer was terrific. Succinct and not an all or nothing response.

I think what might feel strange to you is that you are starting to feel a tiny bit empowered and in the mindset to take back some control over what happens to you and it's foreign to you. Stay with it.

M45
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