i got myslf tested and then talked to my priest. he suggested that i have understanding and forgivness for h and to go home to him with an open heart and see if he would come to church with me to talk to our priest together. when i got home, i asked my h to talk about what is bothering him so much and that i am trying to understand so we can be close again like we were. he said that he doesn't want to talk to anyone about anything right now and i said that maybe he could talk with our priest by himself then. that our priest is very calm and understanding. h started yelling at me for going behind his back to get spiritual guidence and then he really did shove me and he hit me on my shoulder as i turned to go out the door. i am back at the rddisson with some ice on the bruise and i feel such shame. im trying to reach my priest for the next avalable appointment but its so busy with all the holiday services and i know he's really busy. i am beside myself he has never laid a finger on me and maybe hes sick in the head or having a midlife crises. i have been crying and praying so hard and our priest heard my confession and prayed with me too. my h is so alien and a stranger to me now. how can somone change like a snap like that? my heart is in a milion pieces and i feel so alone.
he shoved me and hit me. i know i should file sooner than later.
