I know this "low simmering anger" well. It has been with me for the past few months, actually I think since right before November. I wish there was something I could tell you that would make it go away. Personally, I have not figured that out for myself. IMO, I think these are feelings that we are just going to have to deal with. Do not be surprised if later on you will feel a huge feeling of rage that comes over you.
What I find myself doing is trying to stay busy, trying to just sit back and understand why I am feeling the way that I do.
Your comment of "feeling like dirt for too long" is spot on. However, I think we both need to realize that WE CHOOSE to stand. We Choose to allow ourselves to be treated this way.
So as much as it may be easier to blame our spouses...no one but a gun to our head to make us stay. So what does this tell me (and maybe you) if you think about it?
1) We were codependant on our spouses. 2) Our self worth was shot and tied to HOW our spouses felt about us 3) We are still in the grieving process 4) We are not beinging to learn that we control our lives 5) We are facing some of our fears 6) that divorce [censored]
I hope you feel better.
Oh...one suggestion....in your anger do not allow yourself to hurl it at your H. Once again, if we are honest with ourselves - we choose to do this. Our spouses did not make us. So "own" it and do not allow yourself to be a victim.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
