It has been one week with no communication with my H other than a couple text here and there about the girls. none.
I am not missing him. The longer I am away from him physically and emotionally, I am getting angry. Not an unhealthy angry, but I am upset by the way he has manipulated me lately. Telling me that he loves me and working out a "plan" for the future, then reading the text from him to OW that he loves her. Then finding him at the bar the next day. When I don't have him physically in front of me, hugging me, telling me everything is going to be okay. I find that my thoughts go black.
The longer I am away from him, the less and less I want him back in my life.
This is scary, this emotion I am feeling. It is like a dead feeling. no pain, no heartache. mostly just low simmering anger that I have been treated like dirt for too long and I don't want to be in this situation any longer.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
