The weekend was very solid for us. No fights/disagreements and I really, really enjoyed my W's company this weekend...as a friend. I think she enjoyed mine as well. We watched a movie together on Saturday night and last night. It was my idea for the movies and last night my W says to me. "Thanks, that was a really good idea (for the movie) I had a good time."
I had a couple minor issues that came, but I managed to work through them. For example, on both nights my W and I sat on different seats. I would have liked her to sit next to me, but she didn't. I didn't get pissy or mopey about it. I understand where we are.
However, I will say that it's nowhere near back to normal. Still no physical affection of any kinds and There are definitely moments of awkwardness between us. They don't bother me as much as W, because my IC said we would have them. So I expect them. She commented on in on Sunday after the movie - she asked me "Are we ever going to get back to where we were." I should've said "we are a lot closer than we were weeks ago." I didn't. I just said I thought we would (real brilliant)
I'm ready to start initiating some physical affection and I almost went for a kiss this morning, but I pulled back. I'm still just waiting as I don't want to derail things. I wonder if if will come up in our MC session on Friday. I'm very much looking forward to it.
W has started talking about the future. my w has talking about us taking a yoga class together (She was talking about it last year before the rough times hit. She said "I'm still on this yoga thing." I suggest that we could do it before or after MC because it's time we've carved out already. She said it wasn't a bad idea.
oh well, I hope to continue this.
Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet. --Jean Jacques Rousseau.
