Oh, I don't blame the board or the mods for the slow posts. Quite the opposite, even if I wasn't posting, the people here have kept me sane and stopped me from engaging in any more of my stupid behavior. This is a great community!!!
I have made some friends. But its tough in new friendships as you are not particularly close yet and the last thing you want to do is overwhelm a new friendship with these types of problems. Nobody wants to be around people who are depressed especially at the beginning.
My family does know what is going on. That's a bit of a double edged sword. They are INCREDIBLY supportive, that isn't the issue, but they are also incredibly worried because they've never been so far away from me. Therefore, I really have to be careful because the last thing I want is for them to worry too much.
A couple of H's friends know what is going on as well. They are helping him with the re-write of our history which is hard to take. He's also engaged in an EA with a woman at work (I also work at the same company) who I've never gotten along with. This is further inflaming the issues. While I try my best to ignore all of it, it is tough and it is hurtful. She helps him along with demonizing me. I'm very lucky because I get along with most people here and well, they don't like this other woman very much. But that hasn't stopped H from listening to her.
It was getting hard to get away from all of it. But I joined a gym, hired a personal trainer, go out a bit more, am able to escape in the house to other rooms. None of it seems to get better though. Not the M nor my despair. I know this means that I am not successful detaching. Though I am going through the motions, I have not yet managed to master it.
