This is where I struggle. I can't picture being content. I want the perfect family I have now. I can never have that again if this M ends. This is the only woman I will have kids with. I don't care what anyone says, there is no way to be content with this.
Habit let's break down this statement into reality
I can't picture being content. Just because you can't picture it doesn't mean it won't happen. This is what faith is all about man. Believe without seeing man. Positive thinking WILL change this. YOU WILL be content someday soon regardless of how your sitch turns out guaranteed.
I want the perfect family I have now. Your family as it stands may be perfect individually, but it just isn't working as a unit, you aren't all on the same page, it's not perfect.
I can never have that again if this M ends. No, you won't in the typical sense of word family. However, If you own your mistakes, make amends the best you can, become the man you want to be and it still doesn't work, what more can you honestly do. You can't carry a burden like that forever man, if it doesn't pan out you forgive yourself, learn from your mistakes and move on with your life.
I don't care what anyone says, there is no way to be content with this. Spot on man, it's totally up to you how you wish to live your life. I for one am going through with an unwanted divorce and their have already been many day's where I couldn't imagine being any happier. Sure I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, but you can CHOOSE to either let it ruin you.....or make it into the best thing that ever happened to you. I for one am choosing the latter.
