Lighthouse lit till WAW comes out of fog.

[habitacker]

Thanks dbmod.

Thanks Denver. It is just getting so darn hard. Never seeing any baby steps or anything positive just to keep going.

I have never seen any sign of A, but now she is getting a laptop. Why? She has never used a computer for anything more than looking up recipes and shopping. (which has gotten out of hand). I know I should not read things into this,but I can not help what it looks like.

I have a question that has been weighing on my mind since the bomb. I would like to have a response from Sandi2 on it, but anyone with any thoughts would be fine.

The last few times we ML, 2 weeks before bomb, I noticed teary eyes from her. I remember asking if anything was wrong, and she said, "it's nothing". I figured it was maybe just something womanly. Well, obviously it wasn't. This is what I mean by no communication.

Well after the bomb and telling me she hasn't loved me for 3-5 years, I asked her why she initiated and ML to me a few weeks ago? She said,"because it was the only thing that made you happy". Remember that I was a grumpy,angry, verbally abusive man at the time.

Does this sound like a woman who is out of love? I mean, why even bother initiating ML, if you don't love me,like me, and can't even stand to be around me, why initiate ML just to make me happy?

She had also mentioned about ML over the past that she just felt like it was her wifely duties and it was what married people do. I can see this at the times that I initiated it, and she was just going along with it, but why would she initiate it? Just to put me in a better mood?

I would think if you did not love someone and didn't like them, you would avoid ML to them pretty darn hard. Wouldn't you?