Stamina with hope

[WCW]

Thanks seeking, this is the first time I've been the one on the horse competing at this level, previously I have been the pit crew - for H. I was there every stride of the way for him and our stud horse when they went to World Champ. I'm honestly more comfortable being behind the scenes rather than in the arena, it would be nice having H supporting me ringside.

Lorie, thank you. I think you're right that H needs to keep digging out with his own shovel. He made the mess. Problem is I am caught in the effects.

kat, as always, thank you.

Today H was helping me with some techy challenges I was having, somehow that turned into updating the contact list on my phone, which if you've followed along all these years you know that my phone has H's contacts list on it when he gave me one of his old phones to take over. So, H deleted all the contact info for ow. I asked why. He thought he was just deleting duplicates. I asked him to put it back in, and he did.

I told him that I didn't plan to use it. But I asked if he was in an emergency again and we were waiting for him to be loaded in the ambulance if he would take off the oxygen mask and ask me to call ow first again like the last time. H said "probably not".

Ok, so I know that doesn't sound like much, but in my reality with H that is the biggest admission he has made, and I believe it is over. Except of course what is still business. Why do I allow that? Because there is no way to enforce an ultimatum if I say he cannot.

My sister celebrated their 40th anniversary. When they kissed BIL told her "40 down and 40 to go". Isn't that SWEET??