You really have a rough road right now. I have so much respect for you and what you working for here. I think you are doing a good job. Keep the high road.
As lost has said, ALL IS NOT LOST, and there is definitely hope. I agree with lost again, in that you might need some help if you don't have it.
I am keeping you in my prayers.
btw--how is the job situation?
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001