Deju vu, but new to the online forum...round 2

[mj144]

Mr B, she has always had the upper hand. She was pulling the trigger. She played phone tag with a mediator the week of Christmas. I have only spent 1 night at my apartment since my W was away on a ski trip this weekend. I am headed back tonight and we'll see how the week goes. I can always move back, but then what if she does pull the trigger. Then I am screwed. In Colorado it is a 90 day waiting period. If I call her bluff, then I could potentially be divorced by the end of April. We have agreed to not get lawyers involved(for now) so that will only speed up the process.

You may be right that I am looking for validation, but I have no clue what to do at this point. I feel like I am trapped between a rock and a hard place. I really don't think that there is anything I can do that will have positive results.

I really don't know what to do anymore.