I'll tell you right this second, I don't feel strong at all. I'm in a new city where I barely know anyone, about 1000 miles away from my family, in a place that no one would really care if I dropped off the face of the earth, dealing with a husband who probably would cheer if I dropped off the face of the earth.
I follow the rules now (as tough as it is). Had another "interaction" where he reminded in his own way just how little he thinks of me and our marriage and I went to the bathroom and cried so he wouldn't see me.
I'm not sure I know what is harder, keeping my stupid mouth shut or trying to see light when everything seems so hopeless and dark. Gotta keep on keeping on, right? There are just days where I don't know how much longer I can hold on. I'm having one of those days today.
As far as time between postings, I understand. It took days for my posts to post at the beginning and just kind of gave up for a little while.
