Need advice please!!! Not sure on next move?

[dixiegal]

Sandi2-

I can only say that I we started off right so I thought working on things. He would come over every week on his one day off, we took vacations and etc. But, that turned into years! He never would come home. He would sometimes talk about it. Looking back, I was angry. We were going to a counsler whom told us to divorce cause H would not do the work. So, we never went back and slipped into this circle. Days before Christmas over the phone we got in verbal fight...where I challenged him. He said, I'm ending this..."Its not fair to keep you waiting when I can't come home".

So, I got all the books and read through them. I was doing all the wrong things!!! I created some of the issues...I missed the mark so many times.

I'm so devasted, because I feel that I made matters worse and he probally would have come home a long time ago. Now, I feel that it done and we never got a real shot at a new Marraige.

This is my last shot...I know...I want to get it right finally!! So, please any help would be great!!