On Figurative Ledge - Talk Me Down?

[Ruikee]

Denver/Scott,
I am sorry you are both going throught, i know one thing, I feel the same way at times. The last time we seperated, she sent the LS papers, i battled with signing them, then i did, shortly after that, we reconciled. Now im at that same juncture. Nothing has been filed but she knows i have been to see a lawyer. This morning she shows up at the house unannounced, saying she needed her journals. only 3 months later. She had texted me yesterday to ask how the baby was and if i can bring him home by 5. I told her a while ago that i would contact her if i had a problem with the baby, and i know what time i need to have him back by. I didnt think a response was necessary. Said she called my phone but no record of it there.
Anyhow, its really up to you, you have to make the decision of saving the M or moving on. Once you do that things will fall where they may. I battle with it all the time. 3 months seperated as of yesterday. What i deal with most is living in this big house by myself with all the memories etc. I wish i could just move out and start something else. All my friends are married, so thats why its tough at times for me to GAL. I find myself at the local sports bar just hanging out.....grabbing a bite to eat. I dont drink..... Just hang in there.....what does that mean exactly......never understood that one....