DB'ing but it's a daily struggle - need support.

[ScaredinCanada]

It's funny, my W told me today that the sitch is really hard on her and she is "struggling to fake it with me". Which is just crazy, because she basically just ignores me.

I need to just leave her alone and let her work through it. Like I said before their isn't OM. I'm confident of that, but at the same time I know that part of her fog is "my dream man is out there".

If she actually does leave I have no idea what's gonna happen. She told me she might just move away somewhere were housing is cheaper. Which I told her she can't do that and take the kids away from me (she knows I'm stuck pretty much in our area because of my job), so she changed her stance and said she won't do that.

It's really funny when I think about (and she's said it too), that our life has been pretty damn good. We've been healthy, kids are healthy, done well financially, we live in a beautiful house in a quite community (where she's always wanted to live) but somehow this "fantasy" she's in she sees so much more possibility in the world - for all of her dreams to come true.

At this point I am starting to look forward to the day when I'm actually content with her out of my life, because I believe I will really need my strength as I honestly think she'll be back when she regrets what she's done - I want to be in a good mental state to make a decision that's best for ME.