This Storm Shall Pass

[Sanderika]

Thank you Lorie, Cas and GAG I truly appreciate your thoughts of me.

Last night I went to bed really early and read the Bible for about 45 mins before turning out the lights....I guess looking for comfort, faith and hope. I did not seek out these exact passages, at random I turned to different books and passages.

The same exact passages I read last night in Psalms and Isaiah were written in today's daily devotions by Rejoice Marriage Ministries which I have coming to my email automatically.

AND...

On today's First Radio Parish Church devotion that appears during our local morning news on tv....Rev. Panagore read the entire passage from 1 Corinthians 13:4 -

"Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful;
it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its
own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not
rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears
all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures
all things.
Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as
for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass
away. For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is
imperfect; but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will
pass away. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I
thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I
became a man, I gave up childish ways. For now we see
in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in
part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have
been fully understood. So faith, hope, love abide,
these three; but the greatest of these is love."

To me the significance of this is that 1 Corinthians 13:4
is the last passage I stumbled upon and read fully before I turned out my lights.

I am not one who knows the Bible well. I will admit I have turned to it from time to time over the past 5.5 years to gain some comfort. I have not been a faithful follower.

Is this a message I am supposed to find? I have proclaimed myself a Stander for my marriage.

Is God working in us? We have experienced noticeable changes in my husband's heart.

Is this all coincidental? Am I grasping for reasons to have hope, patience and faith?

GAG, I am working on reading the thread link you posted for me.

Do you all believe that DB really works best before our spouses actually leave, while there is still a thread of commitment to the marriage?

Do you all believe that extreme separations like mine rarely result in reconciliations? It appears for those reconciled the separations range from a few weeks to less than 2 years.

For those who actually divorce, what ultimately reconnects the two again? I can say that I have done the bulk of the work thus far. Yes, I have seen major changes in my H, but reality tells me that he isn't prepared to reconcile now or later.

I am spending a great deal of time in solitude, sorting out my feelings this week. I have run the entire range from happy to devastated to love to hate to who cares to anger and everything in between. Coping is hard as I am pretty much to consumed in my thoughts to accomplish anything.

I love you all for your kindness and just being there to listen to me....I wish I could hug you all in person.

Sanderika