Situation Normal; All Flummoxed Up

[crushednstuck]

AB,
Thanks for the input. I like the notion that there's unfinished business attached to the cycling, as noted by your psychiatrist. I know there's more to be uncovered for me. I just don't know how to get there.

I re-read my post and it sounds rather morbid, but I do have many highlights. There are rays of hope. My biggest challenge is to not grasp wildly for them.

I know it is our choices that make us feel stuck. My attempts this year to take more control over my feelings will be my biggest priority - aside from my kids.

I sympathize with your emotional rollercoaster. Judging from your signature, the new year may not begin the way you planned, but finishing some business could provide satisfaction. I often think that if I file and end it, my W may just be shocked out of her funk. I would be taking control, but it seems to be a gamble.

I think I will really embrace the idea that regardless of the sitch, I will take the reigns and have a say in how things go. If D is in my future, I will not fear it, but use it to close the book on one chapter and begin another.

Best 2011 to you too AB!