Well all the advice is good, but its hard, hard, hard. We had another blowup after New Year's because I just can't keep my mouth shut! Of course, he says that he is thinking about divorce and sometimes feels like he's not in love with me anymore. He has lost A LOT of weight and drinking more than ever. Not getting drunk, but drinking. I am pretty sure he's at least got an EA going on. I can account for most of his time so I really do not think that it is a PA. We work together at the same company so I really am aware of his time.
This week has been tough because usually we eat lunch together and take smoke breaks together. He has made an excuse not to eat everyday and then takes his smoke breaks with someone else. I spent the week trying to pull my head out of my rear end and have just smiled and kept a good attitude. 3 different people in the office said I was glowing this week! That made me laugh. On Friday, he actually invited me to lunch with someone else. I guess that is a step.
He's very cold and distant, though. Doesn't want me to do anything for him. Doesn't want to come near me or be near me. He's not angry, just avoiding. Of course, because I've had such trouble CONSISTENTLY keeping my mouth shut, I understand his reactions.
What do people do? When the emotions become too much, what do you do to stop doing what you know is wrong????
