I am back and still feeling very sad. I hope the grief goes away eventually. I miss my dad so much. As they say, absence is "louder" than presence. And my mom is not coping well. She started talking about how her life is coming to an end...
The trip was fine. We had a good time. No snow but still we had fun. The kids loved it. They saw a fox, rode horses, played with dogs etc etc.
H was nice and caring. We didnt make make love at all which was fine with me, I am not in the mood lately but I figured something was off and asked him and he said I once told him he was the worst lover. Not true although I had said something like that during one of our heated convos. I knew then it was harsh but didnt think he noticed. Well, he did. Funny, I feel I have every reason to feel insecure in regards to sex and now he feels it too...
Anyway, things are ok in general. LIfe has been a bit strange and there are moments when I feel I want to escape. But they dont last long.
Hope everyone is ok and enjoying a good year already, xxx
