"My wife does not respect me." What makes you think so?
"At times I think she does not love me." First define love for me!
"All my life I have been told that you should "do" things that will help build a "family"." Yes, and hopefully not to lie, steal, betray, ...
"I feel like I have done that." Already? Then build a community of families. When you're done with that build a nation. Then come back and post some more ...
"The measuring stick that I am held to says I did not." What stick is this? Have you tried the "rule of thumb" which says that the stick cannot be thicker than your thumb
"I have DB'd a marriage. And "won"." Define victory. Marriage is war that should end in the death of one or both spouses. Its not just one battle.
"I find myself lacking in what to do next." What needs to get done?
"Me.. personally.. I am a year with my foot out the door." A WAH in the making?
"I don't "love" her like I used to." And she does not love you either?
"Is it my drinking? Is it my porn abuse? Is it money (feeling secure)? Is it just that I am not who she thought I was?" Why not ask her?
"I want to hear thoughts on what I should do." First define the problem.
"Or will this be a waste of time for me?" I don't mean to be cynical but to me marriage and love cannot be based on attraction which is fleeting and immature; it has to be based first on commitment otherwise you should take the domestic partner approach for tax saving purposes or the no strings attached "friends with benefits" approach and change partners as often as you wish and you won't need to bust a big D each time. If you happen to have "children out of wedlock" give them up for adoption at birth.
