My wife does not respect me.

At times I think she does not love me.

All my life I have been told that you should "do" things that will help build a "family".

I feel like I have done that.

The measuring stick that I am held to says I did not.

I have DB'd a marriage. And "won".

I find myself lacking in what to do next.

Me.. personally.. I am a year with my foot out the door.

I don't "love" her like I used to.

Is it my drinking? Is it my porn abuse? Is it money (feeling secure)? Is it just that I am not who she thought I was?

I want to hear thoughts on what I should do.

Or will this be a waste of time for me?

Relax
Eat
Think
Act normal
React.. Smartly.
Do something different.
Emulate.
Do Work.

Lets get "RETARDED" in here.