Not much to update today except that I have kept my promise to myself and have not text or called H. and he has respected me by doing the same.

I read a historical romance novel last night, this is something I used to do when I was in high school, college and my 20s. I switched to more substantial reading in my late 20s - 30s. But every once in a while I get a itch to read a great love story - especially about Highland warriors because they are so very tall and manly whistle anyway, what I found interesting last night (read until 3am) was that my whole life when I would read these novels, the man was ALWAYS my H visually in my head when I would read. Last night, it wasn't, it was just the character in the book.

I cried. but not hard, and not for long...

My life and heart and soul have been so damaged deep inside that I don't even read a novel the same anymore.

I came to the realization that it was okay. Life is not always a fairytale like I beleived. but that doesn't mean it isn't wonderful and glorious in other ways.

On a different note, my girls have a huge weekend long swim meet this weekend and all of us swim parents have hotel rooms and will be visiting the casino saturday night after the swim meet. Can't wait - the other swim parents are my very best friends and we always have a blast when we go away for weekend long meets.

Have I told you all how incredible my girls are at swimming? They are and it is so much fun to watch them grow in this sport that is so healthy for thier bodies and minds.

D10 has already qualified for 3 events at State this year. She is amazing at breastroke! Her little body was created for the water. She could qualify for at least 2 more events for state this weekend - so wish us luck!!!

TAMF
m:41
xh:41
T: 20
M: 15
D: 16
D: 14
Bomb dropped: 7/3/10
separated: 7/15/10
H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11
divorced: 8/26/12