Drive The Bus, Or Be The Passenger?

[Kemper]

I am struggling to see the roadmap.

Part of me feels like the speed of my trip is accelerated due to my W having to be out of her condo by March 15th. Granted that is two months away, but it would probably take a month for my W to secure another place if she didn’t move back. Thus the timeframe is limited to about a month and I need to ensure this is the right thing to do for me. I have fears about the impact this would have on my sons if things didn’t work out.

I know I don’t want to go back to the M or R that we had before this situation happened. I find myself comparing my W’s actions/words or lack thereof to those of my ex-GF. I am having a hard time feeling or seeing that my W really wants to be with me. It isn’t any one big thing but a culmination of small things that have added up. This could also be the little voice questioning everything, but at the same time I know what it feels like to have someone truly care about me and give unselfishly. I don’t see, hear, or feel those same actions, words, or feelings from W like I did from my ex-GF.

I do have to keep in mind the positives that have occurred, but I also have to look at this from the perspective of making sure I am going into something where I can have my needs met so it doesn’t end up the way it used to be.