Positively moving forward

[awest1217]

No getting finalized on the 13th...H's L still hasn't sent anything so we will have to get a new date (who knows when that will be) and we may have to take a day off of work and do a mediation meeting for no reason. H and I already agree on what needs to be changed. It is just H getting his L to put the changes in writing, unless there are things I didn't know that he wants changed, but if it is only what we discussed it won't be a problem and we could have been done next week.

I let H know I was not happy because he finally text about S yesterday. I sent a one word reply and H said sorry I haven't checked in lately, which set me off so I told him exactly how I feel. I told him that if he doesn't want to be a dad that is fine, but this inconsistancy has to stop because I am the one who suffers the consequences. Then I told him I am tired of him screwing me over when I have been nothing but nice to him through this whole thing considering what a butt he has been to me. He asked what he had done and I told him about how everythign will be postponed again and cost me more again because he can't seem to get his end done. I asked if he still wanted a D, and he responded that he has been e-mailing his L everyday (I doubt it since he supposedly sent the paperwork to my L in October and really didn't until middle of November) to see what is happening. I told him this arrangement between us would be a lot better if the D was finalized because then I wouldn't be getting annoyed with him anymore and I could move on with my personal life instead of always wondering what is next. He asked what he could do and I told him either call your L and get him to do his job or fire him and call my L and tell her what needs to be changed so we can be done. I have personally had it with his lies and not following through and now I don't feel like I have to always be nice. I can tell him that I am mad and why.

On top of that, yesterday I fell on my driveway. I am ok so not a problem there, but it did not make me happy.

Really besides that my world is good. School is going well and even my horrible class is getting a little better because I am punishing them nonstop and giving new seats.

Once the D is done I will just be relieved because that is one less thing I have to have on my plate. Then I can finally get back to just caring for S, work, and sunday school.