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[tpc1977]

Update:

My wife and I are going through the book, "The Divorce Remedy" together. I know a lot of people say you should read this alone but we are trying to do a lot more things "together." This was one of our main issues before the affair. We grew apart. I was doing my thing and she was doing hers. I was the main reason too. I'm a morning person and would go to bed early. She was a night owl and would stay up doing her things. In the end we were sleeping separately and basically just lived under the same roof.

Now, I'm trying to help us find a happy medium. We go to bed together, read, talk, and "other things." Both of us agree that it's almost like a new relationship. It's like we're dating and falling into love.

God has done something in me. My wife, kids, and relatives see someone different. I'm really trying to be someone special to her and them and myself. But there are certain areas in my life that are rejecting this and having a tough time. Mornings are rough. They are my times for devotions, training, and getting ready for the day. Now I'm dragging a bit. I need to take a nap during lunch sometimes to recoup.

Also, our children are challenged. They don't understand this alone time we have. Why we go to bed early and close the door. Why we don't let them stay up with mommy and sleep with her. Our youngest is dealing with separation anxiety from me mostly. Since my wife and I were living apart, so to speak, I found comfort hanging with my daughter and she really liked it. We'd fall asleep on the couch watching TV and she had me all to herself. She even became my care-taker. She would always make sure I had everything I needed and wanted. She loved playing the part. But I tell you now; it was wrong. I see that now. And she's suffering from it. It's almost like I divorced her. My wife and I are trying to deal with it lovingly but she isn't taking it well.