H has been off work poorly. I couldn't drag myself out of bad, been feeling really low for days. He's been texting me loads while he has been off. Mainly general chit chat. Tried acting like a friend and didn't bring R or OW into conversation. It was nice to converse with him esp. after everything that has passed over last few days. Will not read too much into it or spend next 48hrs thinking non-stop about him. Going to go into town tomorrow and take mind off him.
Though sometimes I have my low days and wonder why I am bothering, when I'm with him or speak to him I remember the awesome guy I married I know all this hard work and pain is worth it. I just need to keep remembering this on those dark days. Easier said than done!
