First off you've got to get your sh@t together. When you start making comments like how you can't afford food (even jokingly) sounds like you're letting yourself down.
Forget about your W right now and concentrate on you. Stop thinking about how you're going to look appealing to your W and see to your own needs first. Then save your M.
Sorry, I forgot your background but are you living with your W?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
