Detatching has been the hardest thing I have ever done. You are right, I kid myself into thinking I have detatched. But everything is still done with her in mind. Not for myself.
Maybe I am demented? I don't know. I took all W pictures off of FB (so I didn't look at them) but I log onto Myspace at least every other day to look at the pics of her/us. That doesn't even make sense to me.
I will have a day where I think F her. Than the next day I'll miss her like crazy. Sometimes I go through these emotions several times in the SAME day.
A couple weeks ago I came up with the idea to make a profile on POF. After making a profile, posting pics I was talking with a couple women. I realized real fast that I wasn't being honest or fair to myself or these other women because I was/am nowhere near ready to take that step. How could I be when my thoughts are consumed with my W and wanting to be with her. So I deleted the profile.
I really hate the fact that I feel like my life is just put on hold. Waiting for her. I guess that's where GAL comes into play. I am trying, I really am.
I do love her GCM. Sometimes I wonder why? And wish that I didn't, it would be easier. I even try to trick myself into thinking I don't, but I know that I do.
Thanks for taking the time to read my SITCH. This is really tough.
