Good morning everyone - and I truly mean GOOD morning. I feel so free this morning. the anxiety that has been laying on my chest for the last 5 days has lifted.
Yesterday, I didn't feel like texting or talking to my H at all. He did text me about 5pm last night and it said this:
Talked to D13. Said you got the stove. kul. Im takin her to school tomorrow. Told her i would call when i got close. I understand you not wanting to see me til its over. thats fine. I made you a promise. I intend to keep it.
I replied much later:
ok - thanks for understanding
He immediatley replied:
You got it. Can you please just remember the game plan. for real.
my response much later:
I remember. Actions speak louder than words.
His response:
Good. Thank you.
He text me this morning that he was outside waiting for D13 to come out. (remember his usual thing is to stop and pick up coffee for me, come inside early hang out with the girls and me, take D13 to school, come back hang out with D10 a little longer and then take her to school. most of the time he would come into the bathroom while I was getting ready for work and talk to me.) So he is giving me my space - thank God.
He text me after he dropped off D13 and ASKED if he could take D10 to school too. I said of course. I figured he would stay out in the truck again and wait, but he didn't he came into the basement. I didn't know this and I walked downstairs to leave for work and he was down there talking on his cell to someone from work. I didn't look at him or say anything (YEAH ME!!) I just started to walk out of the house into the garage. He said, "HI". I said Hi back, but didn't look at him and said it as I was walking out. He said to me from behing that he would shovel the driveway for me. I said, "Thanks" and got in my car.
I got in my car and smiled because I DIDN'T want to talk to him or look at him. I felt so good. I am so determined to ignore him.
But more importantly I am determined to focus on work, my girls, my friends and myself.
I hope everyone has a GOOD day too.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12