Andylee, I am sorry it has been a while for me as well. I went away with a friend for the New Year - didnt think I could face it by myself. The H came and spent the holidays with us as well and then watched the babies while I was gone and since hasnt left the house. He is sleeping in the same bed but we are not really communicating --- very weird. I asked him this morning what was going on if we were working on our marriage and if he was sticking around and he just said he wasnt sure.... I dont know what I prefer him being here and living apart or truly living apart. This has all been so hard and unreal --- I think my desire to fight is fading as well. I am not sure the roller coaster is ever going to end.
