last night wasn't so bad, H got a takeaway and dvd for us to watch. Whilst watching the dvd he was making comments about the couple on the film and even said to me "why you sitting by the edge of the sofa and not cuddled up next to me" i sort of heard him but he was saying it during a very loud action sequence (i love to watch films really loud, but was also in awe of what he said) so when i asked him to repeat what he said now that it was quieter but he said never mind. After the film had ended H asked if i was going to work the next day i said i was even though i have the option not too but as he is at home i thought it best, so then i went up to bed, our D woke up so i went to her room to settle her and when i went back to our room my H was in bed (this is unusual for him to follow me to bed) to be honest i was a bit nervous about him being in the bed, but he both curled up at opposite sides of the bed to go to sleep. I woke up during the night (was finding it hard to sleep anyway) my H was tossing and turning aswell and asked me if i was okay, i said yeah then asked him to hold me which he did with no hesitation and will fell asleep.
This was a huge 180 for me, usual if he has upset me or we have had an arguement i would have a grump on for days and the vibe in the house would be terrible, but i did think last night i dont like this atmosphere and that i would break the ice and ask him to hug/hold me, now things dont seem so bad, still dont know what i will be like if we ever ML again, time will tell i suppose.
Today i am work until very late but i do plan to just get on with housework and sort out H clothes for him for tomorrow (as i usually do) all week i have been doing light exercise and drinking more water and i actually feel better for it as my attitude has changed. I have also been dressing sexier to boost my confidence and 'Act as If'i do plan to keep this up so come what may :0)
