We're all in the same boat! It's just different points in a journey, I guess. Are you taking care of yourself and putting yourself first? Unlike some others here, our H have left the building and I think that really adds a different dynamic to the sitch. When a S leaves, it really gives you the opportunity to focus on yourself - and I don't mean in a selfish or vain way. I just mean, remembering that little girl you were and all the things you loved about life before male-female love ever really became anything more than a vague, sweet notion. Life is about so much more than that!
My best advice to you is to stop looking over his shoulder or even seeking him out. Let him come to you if he comes at all. Feel your feelings, but know that they are nothing more than that and that life keeps moving with or without them. And to have some fun just being you and living the life you have.
Me: 33, H: 32 M: 12 years T: 13 years No kids D-Day: 7/2009 Separated: 10/12/10 Future Unknown GITS
"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele
