Big talk tonight. I am a wreck, need support.

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I don't know if telling him no about the car and not reacting to him sleeping in a different bed or our R talk made a difference but H has been pleasant today, is wearing his ring (didn't yesterday) and invited me to go with him to travel to a business trip (just a 2 hr drive up and back this afternoon). I said no, that I can't today and he was fine with that and said "ok, another time". Honestly, 4 hrs in a car with him is too much for me right now, there is no way I can hold it together that long without crying, etc. It would just cause more damage. And with all my crying, DB mistakes earlier this week... I need to show I'm not clingy, I won't just drop my work to do whatever he asks. In a nice way. I did really good, I think! Except when I said "well, thank you for asking me to" and initiated a hug. But he hugged back, really hugged me. His eyes watered up too. Not trying to read into it. I know it's 2 steps forward, 1 step back with a WAS.