Big talk tonight. I am a wreck, need support.

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WCW, I haven't done a great job at helping with his self-esteem. Not at all. He gets stressed, yells at me, I yell back, etc. I'm trying to change that.

I think you're right about the windshield wipers. I was too angry before that to tell him what I needed exactly, I just assumed he wouldn't be there and expected the worst from him based on not being there for me for the wedding and New Year's Eve.

dolphin_05, I am trying to make the changes. See my update posts before yours above (moderation didn't post them until after yours).

You're right about not criticizing him. I'm trying.

In our half R talk we only talked about the car (above) and I asked him about the bills, what we're going to do. If we're working on the M or not. He says he doesn't know. But he did pay bills this month today so I guess that means he has no plans to immediately move out. I didn't push farther. He was too steamed about the car so I gave him space (180 for me).

Limbo truly [censored]. I never thought I'd be here again in this situation after all I went through with the XH and DB'ing so long for that M. I thought this guy was "the one", I thought forever, that he'd never hurt me, or cheat or even want to cheat, never leave me or want to leave. I know I can survive this, no matter what happens. But I really hate being in this situation again.