Am I piecing? Just can't tell 2...

[Sad_but_happy]

So W just called me about to talk about my taking D14 to a show when she is out of town with S12 visiting friends. She sounded upbeat and happy and the convo went well. We even made plans to do more things in the next few weeks. All positive stuff really.

So why am I so anxious right now? I know I want my W back and she is doing all the right things but I am just so upset at the moment... I didn't show my W any indication of it. I was upbeat and happy too. And i was very positive about everything. And I really AM happy about the progress.

Sometimes the urge to discuss R and my needs and my LL is so darn strong that I have to leave and do something else. I resist the urge EVERY time but it really [censored]. Couples are supposed to communicate their needs and this sitch makes that impossible for us LBS's for now. It's like torture.

This type of thing absolutely makes one stronger. Teaches restraint and self-discipline... Not the way I wanted to learn but what can one do?

I guess I just need to be talked off the ledge but I have no idea why...