Am I piecing? Just can't tell 2...

[Sad_but_happy]

Thanks for sharing Harrier. Sounds like you have some control issues. Whenever you feel that anxiety building your best bet is to go for a ride or take a walk... Remember that everytime she says, "is anything wrong", your response is "of course not, everything is fine."


VERY BAD DAY TODAY FOR ME!!! No reason in particular other then my own mind driving me crazy!

So last night was fine as always. I wake up angry this morning because I am looking for my W to just put everything into the M NOW! I want confidence in my M. I need it! I am still angry that IT FEELS as if I am putting more into it. All HER LL's are being met and she is "doing what she can" to meet mine, which isn't much! That's not to say that she is not trying. It's just that my LL's are being kicked to the curb for now. How do I not get resentful? LBS’s need to feel love too…

I am also having major trust issues for the first time. Maybe Sandi can chime in here...

My W lied to me! My W was sneaking behind my back! My W was carrying on an EA! And at the end felt/feels NO GUILT! What would stop her from doing it again? Nothing is guaranteed and she has proven herself to be distrustful!

I have seen people write that, "trust is a choice." I disagree! Trust is earned. Whenever I'm not with her I'm questioning where she is and what she is doing. I have no indications that she is carrying on the EA. Whenever I call she answers. And every time I go to her work her car is there.

But how do I really know?

I don't know... Just a bad feel today for no particular reason...