Interesting development, she texted me last night about something trivial aboutthe kids, I didn't respond, was watching tv, after an hour she phoned, again I ignored it, called her back about half hour later.
She was all where was I, and was I ok?
Just said I had left my phone in the bedroom, anyway we started talking about the kids, nothing heavy, the usual
Then it went onto me and her, I told her I missed her and that I want to work on my marriage, she told me she was scared of it going back how it was, I listened and said I feel the same, but we can make it work, she was going on about how I never talked to her, and she felt that she had done something wrong, my moods, she didn't know who was coming through the door.
I listened and told her she was right, and leaving was the right thing to do, but I want to put it all right.
I explained I was on meds, had councelling, and felt great, but she said that we had only been split for 12 weeks and she couldn't be sure I had changed in such a small time, again I told her I understood how she felt, but I could only base it on how I felt.
I then asked her if she loved me, big mistake I know!!!!, but sdhe said yes, and that she will always love me, but didn't want that life again, I told her that I loved her, I was sorry for what I had done, what I had became, but we owe it to ourselves not to walk away from what we have, and what we could have.
At that my son came in the room she was in and wouldn't leave, he knew she was talking to me and wants to know what is going on.
She said that she had to go and ended the call, is there a hope here, even very slightly?
Or am I looking for the positive?
We are not arguing, not shouting, but talking in a reasonable manner about us, the past, and the possible future
In one way I'm excited, but in another I feel her pain and feel bad for what I became.
I guess now is the time to back off again and let her come to me?
