It is truly remarkable the changes that occur. Sometimes I think they may just be natural changes in a person that has abandoned all that they once stood for. Part of a natural evolution. It does appear that it all fits with the MLC mold at times, but as time moves on I try to avoid labels - because in the end it doesn't really matter what label we use.
I miss the man that my H used to be. I mourn the loss of that person and wish that my children had the opportunity to know him as he once was. He is a very loving and caring father, but what this has done to him and what he has gone/going through has changed WHO he is.
A - I will also never understand, but know that I must ACCEPT and I work towards that every day. No matter what is going on with my H, and no matter what he might say, I am confident that he is not at peace with himself.
I will face this New Year with the understanding (finally) that there is nothing that I can do for him and this year will be all about ME...........................
"Do not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness." - James Thurber
