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[tpc1977]

Right now I'm trying to find happy ground between too clingy and too distant. My wife claims that she understands but I think it's getting to her. I don't want to separate myself from her. When I'm at work, I want to be next to her - if not only for physical contact, also for keeping an eye on her.

She's at home alone during the day. No job. No real hobbies. What's she thinking? What's she really doing? What does she want to do?

The past few weeks have been pretty good. The holidays helped keep us close since I was on vacation. We traveled together and shopped together and spent a lot of time right next to each other. At the in-laws everyone noticed how different I was (in a good way). They all made comments to her. To me it was motivating. To her, I'm not real sure.

I want to be a different man to her but am I doing it all for not. Is she trying to find the right time to pack up and go to 'the better man?' If she's still holding on to that dream then we cannot walk together down this road. Someone else is tugging on her to walk a different path. Hopefully she has really let go like she claims. It will be much easier to see the bumps in the road without tinted glasses.