Here I am, almost 4 months from when the bomb was dropped and I have no idea what has happened to my world. After unsuccessfully getting anywhere for 3 1/2 months, I decided to make a move to move out of the house. Mr Bond/Kemper, you guys have both made me question my decision over and over again. I would really like for some more opinion on my whole sitch since a lot of what you say makes sense, but I didn't see where I was going to be left with time to save this thing.
Well, I moved forward with paying rent to my new 'roomie' last Wednesday night. I paid her 1st and last months rent. Upon returning home, my W and I sat my 2 D down and told them of the impending situation of me moving out. Well, the 5 year old didn't have much to say about it, she is still a bit clueless, however the 7 year old asked a ton of questions and then asked my W questions away from me. She was very upset understandably. I am not too sure how pleased I was with the approach my W took as being almost too nonchalant with her description of the sitch.
Here is the next disaster. Like it wasn't bad enough that I had just told my girls that I was moving out of my house, the next day, I get fired from my job.
The conversation with my wife about getting fired kind of ruined any good will that I gained by agreeing to move out and now she is pissed that we just paid 2 months rent for me to move out when we can hardly afford it. She has a hard time accepting that I didn't know I was going to be fired. My 'roomie' so happens to be out of the country in Viet Nam until Thursday, so when she gets back, I'm going to try and see if she'll try to find someone else to move in so I can recoup part of Jan. rent and get back the last month rent. So...I haven't moved out yet.
So to answer your question Mr Bond, I have no freakin' clue what the hell I am going to do about anything right now. My plans right now are to get a job, 1st, 2nd, 3rd, etc. I do have a phone interview tomorrow and another in person interview on Friday. The whole job thing will be for the better. I was terribly unhappy at my job and although I wish it would've played out differently, I will end up better off elsewhere. The more that I think about it, my unhappiness at work created a lot of the unhappiness that I brought to my marriage and my W.
I really have no idea what this does to exacerbate the sitch any, but my guess is that the hourglass is quickly running out of sand. I don't know how I can reverse the damage from this latest 'setback' unless I get a killer job immediately. However, that just might be her cue to run for the hills.
Where do I go from here with DB'ing? Can some others jump in here and tell me that I still have hope even though it appears I have tumbled down closer to rock bottom? Where do I draw any positives with regards to my M out of this? I know I probably can't build anything until I have a job, but then, it goes back to me moving out and whether or not that is a good decision...
Help?!?!?!?!?!?!?
M42 W38 D5D7 M8 Living as 'roomates' since 9-12-10 Moved out 1-7-11 FIL threatened to kill me 1-20-11
