Hi ZG, In her defense I do know that she is hurting. She lost her best friend to cancer. She lost her dog "who was like her kid" since she never had any. And she started drinking again. Which is something we never did together but she has a 20 year drinking history before she met me.
On December 30th I sent her a short email saying Happy New Year and told her I think about her everyday. Which I do. She sent me one back that sameday saying- "I miss you, I miss you everyday. I hope You, the dog and my kid are ok. Hope you have a happy new year" I haven't responded to this email. I'm not sure how to respond anyway? She basicly said the samething in her last email to me.
So, I'm not quite sure how to proceed from here? She knows how I feel. I don't want to start all the pursuing again. I know she had to be surprised that I sent NOTHING on Christmas. I didn't get anything neither, and wasn't expecting to.
I think she is lost. I think that alot of things have happened to her and she cannot deal with them. So like she told me months ago "I cannot deal with my feelings, so I just want to escape" I guess that's where the drinking helps her, at least she thinks it does. She also told me that "when she thinks about me she gets really upset, that's why she tries to just avoid me" .............So let me get this right, she avoids me because to think about me is too upsetting, but she says she misses me everyday?...go figure, can anyone make sense out of that?
I cannot seem to get any advice from the people that I see giving the most advice on other threads, not quite sure why that is? Is this situation that messed up and bad that no-one wants to bother? lol...can't say I blame ya's...sux to be me.
Thanks for the support ZG. Hope you are doing well.
