Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

I was doing real well and now I am just trying to get my mind around things. I let go completely, emotionally detached and she felt it. She got scared. Then we started talking about the S and reality starts creeping in. And we talk about seeing other people and it kills her.

W said she spent all day thinking about me with someone else and the girls liking a stepmom more than her.

She is a wreck again but not completely cracked. And I don't know exactly what to do at this point. I am trying to think it all through. She is talking about what it would take to work on things, if we have to S before we can work on things, etc. But I haven't heard the magic words yet...no contact/complete transparency. And I have to decide if I can believe her, trust her, and be willing for another round or not.