H's MLC - finding compassion and forgiveness

[Mila]

Thank you Antonia, Punkin and Being

Antonia - your male friend sounds like he is no friend at all....I'm ready to socialize with men....but the sex part....I can't see myself doing that casually....actually have hard time thinking about intimacy with someone else at this time lol....

Punkin - my male friend is definitely not romantic material...no spark on my side whatsoever....but good person to hang out with.
And about the Polar Bear swim next year...the thought to participate has crossed my mind...

Being - Hope that one day we can meet, that would be nice....and btw you are blessed to have such a large family...6 grand kids wow....you are lucky

I've been "processing" throughout the holidays....and I must say that I'm starting to question if I could ever be happy with H again should he eventually wake-up.....I'm pretty detached now....sometimes I think that I was blind and maybe he always was a selfish je** and I just didn't see it...blinded by love...after all he did this to me once before...why would I want to be with a man like that....he is a damaged selfish person...I know there is the MLC diagnosis...but so what...he still had choices....and he chose to give up our relationship, our friendship, our family.....

Don't know...questioning things...