have't talked to my wife in almost 2 weeks... i backslid BAD and called her and that didn't go well at all. it is just like sandi said... i get things off of my chest and it feels great then i get coldness back and that hurts like crazy then i have to just avoid her all that i can but it really doesn't matter because it builds up and i back slide again.
working really hard to not let anything slip. my delimma now is that she is going full speed ahead with the process of divorce. she has all of the information to the lawyer (she told my sister tonight) and now all i am doing is waiting to hear what happens next. evidently some type of mediation even though i offered to give her everything. i'm just in complete limbo and don't know what to do. just let her proceed with the divorce and stay dark? i'm not going to contact her because i just don't see how that will help anything at this point.
am i in denial? should i just give up on my marriage and let it go? her parents are encouraging her to divorce i think and they are pretty much her only influence besides people that don't know me at all (literally.) any of our mutual friends she has pretty much shut out and won't talk to.
what should i do?
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