Need advice and support to keep hope

[Denver_2010]

So called step son tonight and had a short conversation with him. Texted him a little later to see if he wanted to go to college hockey game with me sometime in next couple of weeks. He said he did, so I told him to ask his mom, W, if she would let him go with me. He texted me back saying that she didn't know, for me to call her.

I texted W "Hi. I just asked SS if he wants to go to hockey game. Am wondering if you will let him go"

W: "I'm sitting next to him and heard. I hate to get in the way of you two if its healthy. I'm just not sure if it is. He doesn't understand all of this. Let's talk. I will call later."

Me: "That's fine"

W: "Will call after I put SS to bed"

Okay... I'm sooooo afraid of this telephone call that's going to occur later this evening. I have no idea what W is going to say. My biggest fear is that she will bring up OM and confirm my biggest fear... that being that EA has progressed to R.

Can anyone give me advice or encouragement on taking this call later?? Please. I feel so depressed about her text and the impending tc that has even taken place. I don't know what is wrong with me...