Still Moving Forward

[BeingMe]

I think it was my dreams combined with H leaving on a business trip on New Year's day, that has kept me feeling emotional. I dreamed about a wedding again last night, as I did the day before NYE. It was the next morning after that dream that I cried all morning. At times I wasn't even sobbing, just leaking tears.

I leave soon for my trip to visit niece for a week in the USA, then to Europe to visit my D30 for 2 months, so won't see H for all that time. Such a long time to be separated ... usually it's 3 weeks and it sure hasn't improved our R, so I wonder how it will feel after 2 months. "Absence makes the heart go fonder" or "out of sight, out mind?" The second one has been my experience, so far.

My friend gave me a book to read, called For Women Only by Shaunti Feldhahn. Very interesting, and I see so much of this in my H. Would be nice if men would read For Men Only to get an idea on how women think. It's all based on research from interviews and surveys of random men (and even the men in her life). There are, of course, exceptions, but apparently, this is how men think. And, my H is definitely like those in the surveys. I have started adjusting my interactions with him in the last week and he seems happier, and says he is sleeping so well. WTH!!!! Maybe it's not me, but what a coincidence if not.