When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

I feel like, since my life was turned upside down when exh left, I am not quite sure who 'me' is, I don't know how to live authentically because I made many decisions that had bad repercussions that I lost faith in my ability to make decisions.

I often feel anxious mostly, I find myself spiralling into anxiety and familiar feelings wash over me. It kind of spoke to me when I read your post that you seem to be doing the same thing - correct me if I am wrong!

You are exactly right Julia. Combine that with little to no self-worth (I'm still working hard at it...don't slam me!!!) and it's the perfect storm.

I started writing in a journal again to just get all my frustrations and fears out so I don't put them here and sound like a total basket case. I'm hoping it will help me work through some of it and put it away.