Yes Pickle, I can understand that. I see my H at kids activities, etc. and he seems like the great guy who I married which is why it is so tough sometimes. I believe he is putting up a front as he has told me in the past that he acts like who he has to act like, depending on the company he is in.
So, deep down, is he still that guy or is he still the running scared, blaming all his unhappiness on me guy who walked away from our M last year? I don't know. I remember when we were going through all of this at one point I had told him I didn't know who he was anymore. He responded that he didn't know who he was either and that he just couldn't handle this getting any harder.
At the end of it all you are right, I want that great guy that I married but maybe only if he is able to be himself and be true to himself.
Me: 41 STBXH: 36 D: 11 S: 9 BOMB 12/2009 SEPARATED 5/2010 D SERVED BY ME 9/2010 FINAL D When I'm ready