fullsteam: " I do know that if I'm not strong enough to have a life without him, truly to be able to keep going without him then I am not ready to be with him."

Like I intimated in earlier posts.
I don't have a problem living without the woman my W has become. I'd almost be glad to be rid of her and move on.

What I really want back is the sweet girl I married, or someone even better.

Me 53 XW 50
M 18 Years +2
S14 D19
Bomb 10-24-10
Served 1-27-11
Mediate 4-21-11
Civil D Final 6-2-11
No church anullment
"A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."