Like I said at the beginning of my first thread, W has a lot of teary eyed talks, even admitted feeling guilty about hurting me, but really that's not even the half of it. She will not come to grips with what this is doing to her insides; that's why I think she's reading that book on happiness. Why read a book on happiness if you're happy? I thought EA endorphins were supposed to make you happy! No, right now I think life aint that happy for her.
In our 18 years, we've been practicing our faith and raisng our kids in the faith and not just on Sundays but also involved in parish lay minsitry and social activities. With the exception of her tennis and bunko babes, all our close friends are from church. She has no one to confide in (though she did admit telling a fellow teacher, who noticed the endorphins).
She knows that a civil D doesn't mean squat in the grand scheme of things and that we'll always be sacramentally married in the eye's of God and the Church. (unless she wants to get our marriage anulled, for which there are no canon law grounds)
So yeah I'm in for the long haul, for better, for worse, for richer, or poorer, but this sitch is takng it's toll on her, so I don't think it'll be too long before she makes some decision and there only three choices:
1. File D and proceed with it. 2. Status quo 3. Consider saving the M
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
